One more way to say 'I love you'. A newborn photography session with Geelong photographer Michelle McKay.

 

 
 A perfect little darling, sound asleep after a morning of adoration.

A perfect little darling, sound asleep after a morning of adoration.

 

On the day I met my daughter, the axis of my entire world shifted.

Here was this tiny baby - this completely perfect, breathlessly beautiful little girl. 

And for a little while, she was mine to keep. 

I’d always wanted a child - so much so that I couldn’t allow myself to wholly believe I’d been granted motherhood until long after they’d laid this mewling infant in my arms.

I went through my entire pregnancy with a voice in the back of my head reminding me she wasn’t here yet - that anything could happen, and probably would. I’d never considered myself one of the lucky folk, so it was too much to accept, that I could be gifted this thing I’d wanted so badly.

So that first night in the hospital I stood alone on the cool linoleum floor gently rocking her, still stunned and not completely believing. Yet the stark light above the bed cast a silhouette on the pale blue curtains of this woman, holding a bundle against her chest and slowly swaying.

It was me and my daughter. We shared a shadow, still.

I realised that day that everything for me would be different, though I couldn’t have imagined or anticipated just how fiercely and desperately and completely my devotion would soon become.

I just knew that this secret - this sacred rite of passage named motherhood, had been quite suddenly passed down to me. Even as I stood there, I could feel entire untold chambers of my heart and my self opening up. They ran so deeply it hurt - this sort of ache in my chest that must have been love - a word which in the face of her now seemed so completely and utterly lacking.

 

I now understand this is how most parents feel when they first meet their children.

That tiny word - love - comes nowhere close to describing the feelings that overwhelm us when we meet our babies.

I never had the right words for it, it’s was far too huge.

When I gazed at my darling daughter in that first few weeks there was nothing I could do to express the enormity of it all. 

So I’d take out my phone and catch the way she looked in that moment - so fresh and new, so oblivious to how much she was adored. I knew one day I could show her those photographs, tell her the story of what it was like to meet her, how it felt to become a family of three, the way she brought it all together. Like I’d been waiting my whole life for her to come and make sense of it all. 

 

These days, I do the same for my clients.

I catch the memories of their families and their new babies.

I give them one more way to say ‘I love you’.

A precious souvenir, a token to show the journey has started.

A priceless keepsake of the way it was, when you arrived and made everything wonderful.


Enjoy these highlights from a recent in-home newborn story, photographed right here in Geelong.